etto :]

okay...

2009-01-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

I shall update now??
I am actually very lazy to say blah blah words but about my new year - it could have been better. Ive watched the fireworks - amazing. Beautiful as ever.

And uhm i am looking so fucking old with my new hair style.
But before the rant I want to greet everyone- HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Im hoping for the best this 2009! Yah! :]]

Anyway, it was so foggy tonight~

Yesterday I did a full head of extensions so my hands have been aching all day ! ! !

is swollen a bit still . .

Had a meet up with Mei and others before new year.

My last purikura for 2008.

My new hair style for 2009. I did again myself. And why is that i look so retarded? dammit lol.
At Chiaki's bathroom. I was using her canon cam. I miss my Camera.

******* cont..
Okay 2008 wasn't All good. But A lot happened that i thought i wont make it anymore yet here i am. Not because im good, not because im that strong. But that's because i have so many amazing real friends by myside. Thats because of you guys. You always make me feel that i'm not alone. I wont be able.. ever to thank you all enough for that. Experiencing full shitty feeling and all that, a year has passed by and i was never ever alone. It true - time goes by so fast.

This comming year what ever will happen ill look at time with eyes wide open because i know im not alone. Walking slowly and try not to even blink so i could fully see how everyone will be there again. I don't like to miss those moments, not even a second.

I had a fortune cookie yesterday and it says, " tell those that you love that you do"
And i will right them. Everyone - thank you very much, and i love you all - whole heartedly, i deeply do.

So yeaaaaaaaaaaa 2009 .. yaaaaa!!!! Im excited!

nakjuu

2008-12-20T02:19:00.001-08:00

Anno.. i think its not the photoshop at all but i still look sick?

It's so freakin cold today. Hmm not sure what to blog about. But no my life has been very interesting an intense (uhm?) lately.

About the cosmetology class lately. Well my last attend.. there was this client - somewhat rude . We had a walk-in and i was really nice to her. One of the manicurist was doing her fill-in while i worked on her toes. She said i gave good massages and that her toes looked a lot healthier and prettier so i thanked her for allowing me to work on her.

Later that day she came back; wanting me and another girl to work on her make-up. We did and she left . Uhm yea?? she didnt pay yo!!! nyaa =[[. To save up Jessica-chans allowance im just the one who pay it in the counter.

ahhh >_>.

chuuchuuchuu

* to be continue*

Helow!

2008-12-11T16:04:00.000-08:00

Well technically yours truly is still alive! hahaha * evil laugh *

Well alright I am very sorry for not updating in sooo long. I've been ... very much busy in here.

Okay i have some pictures first:

At cosmetology class:

Okay my classmates in colsmetology class - Sunako-chan ( it's a nickname :P ) and Jessica on the right.

We are currently on the subject of make-up of the face. Three hours of make-up theory. What tools, what products, and how they are used . Verrrryy long. sigh. Did it need to be THREE HOURS? XD

Three hours too long. . God.

The remainder of the classtime was spent practice on one another.

Sunako-chan had fun applying make-up on me. I look like.. Zushi in the picture. Totally. And i have that rawwrrrr expression huh?XD

Too much fun yo!

Okay and so for my life update I'm actually not going at the bakeshop anymore. I need more time to study. Well that's about it. I'll try to answer your emailssss.. and sorry but i cant online on msn at all... that much.

Jana! it's almost 10 am in here. :]]

Everyone:

2008-11-30T23:16:00.000-08:00

I'll be gone for really long.. really really long.

jana.

Boink boink

2008-11-29T03:18:00.000-08:00

Hellow everyone! haahh another day is almost over. It was really fun today. I got a new hair highlights, for free! Jessica-chan did it for me. tehee. She's my always partner in cosmetology class. :3 * piggy smile all around *

Then i had lunch and with Kohei and Daiji. We ate at south coast pizza.

Look!

My rice smiled at me today ! ! It made me very happy. :D

Okay this is how my new hair looks like. Cute right? hahaha
Hmm what else. I went to the school office today and got to talk with the Dean! I was kinda nervous at first but he's a very soft spoken man so yea i got to tell him about my request. Uhm.. etto.. did i put about that in my last blog entry? Hmm no? Etto.. okay well I am in 2nd yr college already but to be able to go to London business school i do need my college diploma so my last 2nd yr onwards in college would be 1 yr only. After this school yr ill take up both 3rd yr and 4rth yr lessons so my scheadule would be like mond -sat 6 am to 10 pm. And even on sundays i'll still have class. Yea -THAT-BUSY.

Click here for the website of the school. It's really nice. And i am really really positive that ill be able to pass all the requirements.

Anyway what me and the dean talk about is the risk i do have to give up. They will support me about everything including both the test they will give to me ( to be able to pass college ) and the government as well. It's like.. hmm what do you call that.. etto.. oh accelerate. It's be kinda like that. I must pass both the school test and the government test. chuuchuuchuuu

Eh so i think eveyrone does get the bad news? Lessssssssssss online. Actually it should start now. Since i do need to really perfect my english. Mama got me an english teacher too. She's from england! :P *000*
Oh and the Dean told me btw that i'll go to different countries, i mean Me alone. hahaha. I feel like a Vip omg. But its funny. The london business school does required students experience from outside their country. I've had before, in Malaysia and Indonesia. And on the year onward i'll be in Usa and Singapore, England ( yah! =]] ) together with the seniors and in France, Germany, and Thailand Yo.. alone. yea, the school will schedule my training in the Universities in there for my on job training. Omg i really feel like a Vip. Nyaa.. but it's an overall thank you. It's not like my school does this to every students. Nyaaa and Thailand yoooooooh!!!!! Omg its been always a dream to go to Thailand.. etto just since last month? hahha, ive been into watching a lot of Thai movies and they are "wow!!" =]]. Actually im thinking if there's any Asian country that i'll live in someday it's either Philippines or Thailand.

Hmm this blog entry is kinda long already.. yea? hhaha gomen =]].

I look so innocent. Hahha. Okay that picture is for kitty-chan. She was sad awhile ago. I hope everything is alright in there already.

Okay this about it. Thank you very much for reading this blog entry. And oh.. May-chan does tell me this a lot:

" everyday we recieve a very special gift. That's everyday. It's what we call life."

She made that quote herself. I might go to Tokyo tomorrow and go to karaoke ponpon in Shibuya with her. It's our.. official second date? *000*

=]].

chuuchuu

2008-11-28T05:04:00.000-08:00

i am totally (!) lowbat already today so..

Goodnight everyone.

:]]

The guy who loves you! <3

2008-11-27T16:53:00.000-08:00

The guy who loves you if he cant always see you he will try to make himself busy for not to have any time to remember you because he knew if he did he will keep on missing you untill he could do nothing.

The guy who loves you cant tell the reason why he loves you. He only knew that in his eyes - you're the only one.

The guy who loves you seldom praise you. But in his heart you are the best. Only he knews it.

The guy who loves you will scold of complain if you didn't reply his message but others. Because he cares.

The guy who loves you only drop his tears in front of you. When you try to wipe his tears you are touching his heart. The heart which beats for you.

The guy who loves you wont give that promises so easily because he dont want to break the promise. He wants to give you the safest and happiest life ever.

The guy who loves you tells you not to think so much about the things bothering you because everything will come smoothly soon. He wants to give you a surprise. Believe him that he can do it.

The guy who loves you will go to the airport to fetch you. He wont carry a bunch of chocolate and call you darling like you expect but he will carry you luggage and ask you, " why are you becoming that think within days?" with his sincere heart.

The guy loves you will listen quietly to you when you're mad, and when you finished, he will say, " You still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier" with a smile.

The guy who loves you call you little kid but everytime he wants to make big decision he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who loves you dont like little toy like teddy bear but he will always put that bear you gave to him in his bed.

The guy who loves while really missing you will want to buy a bunch of chocolate and wait you stupidly under your appartment buy he never thought what he bought is candy. But doesnt matter at all because in his heart, thats chocolate.

nyaaaaaaaa im meltingggggg >_>. So sweet.

bleh =p

2008-11-26T21:27:00.000-08:00

Helow everyone! I just noticed how boring almost all my blog entry titles are. nyaaaaaaaa
chuuchuuchuu * moving along *

So for breakfast i ate at yuka-chans house and i got this:
It's a teriyaki ramen everyone, if its not that obvious? ._.

too plain huh? But Yuka-chan cooked it and it taste good =]].

Then when i went to school a someone gave me this:

Its a cereal. :P Its so sweet and dont need any milk at all. hahhaha.. but you know, it does taste like a cat food. nyaaaaaa =3.

And aha i didnt had anyyyyyyyyyyy sleep at all last night and i was like very sleepy in the class. Good thing teachers dont call me like they usualy does. haaaahhhhhh i was like thinking nonstop about my bed and how i want to sleep in there already but here i am now.. at the front of my bed ( sitting on a small chair ) typing this bloggy.

Okay and i got this mms picture from Aka-chan. Shes in Japantown right now. Busy workinggggg..

Oh and she told me to post this in here:

nyaaaaa maybe nxt time? chuu =3

2008-11-24T16:58:00.000-08:00

I wonder..
I miss the old me from the past. And i want him back.

Is that possible..?

but i remember this - " When you want something with all your heart, the universe will conspire to help you achieve it."

It is possible. The old Miju will be surely back.. soon.
Im closing this blog entry with so much hope.

*ediT*

demo doshte..

The people that i trust and love the most dont complain about me changing.. even if its not for good at all. I dont really get mad before and idk how but now when i get mad its... scary. BUt may be somehow its like Evans attitude that i have now. You do change though you know its not an all for good but you just want someone who's strong and sincere enough to break the boundaries and still be with you, someone who will still stay. Its like that time when i first met him and he wrote there in his profile, " i wont reply your comment and message. " But i did send him a message and he did.. reply it. And he told me back, " I just want those sincere and true once. I dont need thousands of friends even just 1 or 2 as long as they are true ill survive."

Its like this, everyone...
May be i am really changing not for good but may be in the other hand its not that bad at all, because i want those who are sincere. May be it wont be like before where i will entertain everyone and be an all nice person. The drama days doesnt seem to end. For the past months ive seen the rudest things about life.. and it did changed me.

Right now im thinking about the friends who say, " i miss the old miju"
it should be a compliment, doesnt it?
But its like and instand smack in the face. In front of me. Its the other phrase for " i hate you", somehow.

I did change but a lot about the Miju that you did love (?) is still here. Sometimes.. it shouldnt just be the eyes who will see it.

So right now i want to end this blog entry with the thoughts that No... the old Miju wont go and come back.

huh!!!!

2008-11-23T19:13:00.000-08:00

It's getting more and more sad today.

Today....

2008-11-23T06:40:00.000-08:00

....

After i went to the bakery today i played with kitty.

I thought all kitties run away from me but

this one loves me. :3 chuuchuuchuuu <3333

I went to Jessica's house today and we practiced braids. She's really good so i asked her to put them in.

But . . .

It started to itch later nyaaaa.. so i took them off when i was hanging out with Kohei and Daiji. Tehee.. i felt so relieved once they were undone! hohohoho. I wonder if i would try it again . . . hah! ~>~

2008-11-21T06:10:00.000-08:00

I get to play with kitty today!

makes me smile but . . .

the kitty runs away.

got hungry so yuka-chan, chiaki and i went to get ramen.

Its a hella busy day. But everyone is smiling and happy so i was. :]]

-shrugs-

My hair look black on the pic. This picture is for Evan and koni who kept teasing me on how uhm.. okay unnice.. but evans word is "retirded" on my last recent picture below.

Thats all for now everyone. Thank you for reading my blog entry again. I shall post more picture next time.

chuuuuuuuu

and
goodnight :]].

I appreciate everyones email! thank you so much. It really makes me happy.

2008-11-20T04:31:00.000-08:00

( taken inside the uhm.. i forgot >_>, but its in kyoto uni already )
So i went to kyoto today with yuka-chan, chiaki, justin and jun. Everyone is so amazing. omg... im really really happy to be in their group. I did learn a lot today. A lot. Thank you everyone for your hardwork. I am so looking forward to work with everyone again.

This morning i kinda colored my hair. :D

Darker.

SO DARK!

is slight red violet shade.... hah!

I am not able to adapt to the change yet . . .

See the picture above? I look like an ojisan in there omf *000*. WHY IS THATTTT??

ohohohohoho i know! not getting enough sleeep. I only had 2 hrs of sleep today. oh no 1 and 1/2 actually. So yea ill be sleeping early tonight =]]. My eyebags look so aweful. taaaaaah >_>.

So till here. Ill online tomorrow i suppose?

goodnight everyone =]].

2008-11-13T06:33:00.000-08:00

i Miss koni already.
she got the blog entry wrong =L.
Me and Uchi are good friends.. nothing more will happen.
I wanna call you baka non stop >_>.

Im still waiting for koni..

Dear santa....

2008-11-13T01:41:00.000-08:00

....I know its too early.. but...
can i have her for christmas?:

I freakin miss her >_>.grrrrrr stupid exams cant catch her onlineeeeeeeeee. dumdee dum.
My uchi is getting more and more pretty. chuchuchuuuu

2008-11-12T05:43:00.000-08:00

So today I hung out in the Laguna Niguel area I suppose??

There are so many horses!

They stink . . . >_>

I tried to take photos with them but cannot get good photo. . . .

oh~ I am still sick, unfortunately. .

I hope tomorrow I will feel better!

I went to Jiane-chans house and did karaoke in there. And i had my stupid vanity shit thing today. I was so damn insecure just because im not wearing a skinny jeans. like.. wtf? haaaaaah not good.
Till here. Im just going to send dada the emai tomorrow for my resume.

Good Night!!! …(*000*)

2008-11-11T06:44:00.000-08:00

Above is a photo today on shinju hotel. I look sick on the pic?

Today my body feels bad. I think i am sick??

My throat is really sore. wth.. and im still not done with my resume. Its taking so long? sigh.. ahh this is not good. but i already asked kitty-chan and koni to help me out. so yea.. everythings gonna be alright :]].

Thats all for now.

Ill be beack by tomorrow to blog again.

2008-11-09T22:41:00.000-08:00

And so ill be ready in a week from now to finally have a part time job. A real one. Ill stop modeling for some reason. The company im applying for is an american company and they need someone who can speak good english. Okay english : can pronounce it very good ( oh yea i can ) and good in the grammar ( uhmmn yea? ) omg.. the money im gonna earn if ever is BIg. Big as in i can support my studies in college and have my own apartment. Living by myself. i mean the expencess. Hell yea!!!!!

I contact dada about my Objective in my resume. It must be written in english and im not sure how to put the words together. And hohoho ill be interview in english too. hahahha.. okay im not sure if its something to laugh up. I might end up startering (?). erghh *00* nyaaaaaaa Think positive Miju!!! ohohoho.. chubei =p.

I dunno why but im happy today.
I went to Maria-chans house today to visit Jenny ( his cat ). yea its a HE. sooo cute!!! i wanna bring him home :0.

see?

okay thats about it. i am not sure if ill be online tonight like what i told koni, evan , uchi and pillow.. and kitty-chan. gomeeeeen everyone!!! i must sleep early! And i got my pointers to review for the exam before the christmas break.

so till here...

I am going to study now.

I might not be online tonight.

Good night and sweet dreams ! ! !♪ ☆彡

~ ＰＥＡＣＥ＆ＬＯＶＥ！！！♡

☆ジェームス☆

chubei

2008-11-08T21:11:00.000-08:00

Okay getting ready to go back to school hmm an hour from now. AAhhh even on sunday >_> how come we dont have any rest day anymore?

Picture taken this morning. I used hair straightener Iron. Its

straight again hohoho. I took this picture for Koni this time :]].

Cosmetology life update:

I got my first doll head for cosmetology class this week. This is the one we use for the haircut practice. I named her Koni :]].

okay life update:
i promised a lot of friends that ill be posting the kyoto trip pictures but im sorry >_> the digicam i used ehh.. well just this morning i was taking pictures in the bathroom and guess what happened .. oh yah... it got drip (?) into the toiletbowl.. ewww? hahhaha

okay but ill ask for yuka-chans picture if i can. My poor digicam is so wet. and its the digicam i got from steven as a bday present last year. aaaaaaaaaaaaah

okay moving along

ahhhh i havent feeling well this morning... its a sad news mama told me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my life has been full of damn shits lately. My drama days will continue like forever. seriously this is damn tiring. so much.
story?
Ill be in england on march. Ill study in woldingham ( spelling? ) and will go back to 1st yr college. WTF?? Im on 3rd yr college by then in here. And i cant say no. Why? They will bring up Zushis ( older brother ) death and how they wont expect that much from me anyway if Zushi is still alive. Ive been trying to understand them and their decision for soooooooo long. But omg.. this is tiring. The one who holds me back is .... someone.

This about it. jana mina-san.

Candle Night

2008-11-02T20:24:00.000-08:00

Do something special . . .
Read a book with your child by candlelight.
Enjoy a quiet dinner with a special person.
This night can mean many things for many people.
A time to save energy, to think about peace,
to think about people in distant lands
who share our planet.

Pulling the plug open the window to a new world.
Awakens as to human freedom and diversity.
It is a process of discovery about our potential.
However you spend them, for just tow hours, join us.
Turning off the lights, and help us spread
a gentle wave of candlelight around the earth.

"Candle Night" started in Japan in 2003. The Voluntary Blackout movement in Canada was the inspiration. This movement, launched in 2001, was started to show opposition to the Bush administration's energy policy. We started Candle Night to show we believe the true sense of "peaceful life" can be realized in everyday life. Instead of constantly crying out against nuclear power, we want everyone to feel the importance of quality time.

Even though each effort is a small piece, when put together like a jigsaw puzzle, they will lead to the power of change.

*********

:]]

Weird weird. scary

2008-10-28T03:21:00.001-07:00

what does it mean when another person had thesame dream like yours? not that alike but almost??
wtf..?

its so weird and scary. i ended up asking who on earth is she.
like okay this was my dream last night. ( this is like dadas new blog entry )

Its much like i was watching a horror trailer movie. its really short but you will do get what the story is about.
The first scene was on a hmm lets see its much like a valley where the wife was walking around and the husband was holding her hand ( much like accompanying her ) and they were both like laughing and seem very happy. it was sunrise that time okay. then the next scene is like a forwarded already.. its sunset and hmm okay i forgot but i think its the wife alone on that scene and was walking around thesame place but the sound changed.. like before it seem so happy then its suddenly sad ang scary then theres a.. hmm what da ya call that where you put the ball on the golf when you will hit it? its much like the balls stand.. well whatever.. the wife will suddenly strike it.. with her hands with so much impact. wtf. so yah there were blood. but no the way it was shown... when shes about the strike it with her hands alone it got forward again then then nxt scene was ofcourse her hand with so much blood. and theres like a picture ergh scene of them very happy.

okay i am not so good at explaining right now. sorry :[[

but i swear its the best movie trailer ive ever seen hahahaha. so yea if im gonnabe a derector of a horror movie in the future i already have my trailer lay out. i swear its so awesome like i was just watching a trailer.. its so short but it will give you this impact that... Ahhh i wanna watch it, ill definetly watch this!. Like that : ]]. and no i told you its scary not because i did got scared on it but... sOMEONE HAD THEsAME DREAM LIKE ME. wtf..

and no.. i didnt tell it to anyone yet.... we both and she told me about her scary dream and ... its reaaaaaallly almost thesame already. or may be its actually really thesame she just cant explain it that much good.

what does that mean? i find it reall scary.

i got a gift...

2008-10-28T03:20:00.002-07:00

.... from gale-chan =]]!!!!
i love it.. like by A LOT!!!!

so cuteeee!!!!!!!

i gotta make something for her too. well i already did but erghh ^00^ * long story * gotta make another one!!!

chuchuchuchu!!!!!!

well i am really happy to have a friend like her you know. hahahah
and ive been catching up a lot of sleep lately.

and something is weird. FREAKIN WEIRD!
Evan have this friend online her name isMary Ann. shes from philippines too like May-chan. and you know what i did got to talk to her and omg.. we have a lot (!) of things in common! so much. ive been having this thought that shes like the female version of me???? hahaha
well the story dont stop in there. but okay the continuation should just be between me and her. but i swear its helaaaaaaa weird. ._.

chuchuchu..

okay this about it. i think she will write something too about me on her blog :]]

Mary Ann-chan! nice talking to you! im looking forward to have some more conversations with youuuuuuuuuuu!!! :]]]
Gayle-chan! teheeeeeeee thank you for everything!!!! :]]
Dada... the mijuku is inloveeee!! erghh im still melting about it! hahahaha.

okay everyone. gudnight!!! tomorrow will be beautiful :]].

<3
chuchuchu!!!

* puff*

2008-10-28T03:20:00.001-07:00

Today:

Tiring. I did not sleep very much last night because I didn't have my Moody with me. :[[
i had a chat with dada for like 3 hrs i think.

I have a job on the bakeshop and have been for a week~ I do get free bread so.. yay? Haha! :]] Everybody should come visit! It's called.. O Manila bakery??? Filipino bread~ yo!

And this:

キミ＋ボク＝ＬＯＶＥ？？♪♪

oh yah since ive been THAT bus i forgot to tell everyone online that i got extra classes. Well its much easier to say i enrolled on a short cosmetology course. Its just near our school.

On the picture above: I got my uniforms! Actually.. they're basic scrubs. Very breezey. I get cold wearing them for first time :) OMG looks like i have no arms! ' 0 ' !!!

so far i learned Coloring bleached hair back to natural. Easy. My partner had a difficult time practicing on me... She complained about my hair length. Hah! Is difficult for her to clip? Funny. :]]

キミ＋ボク＝ＬＯＶＥ？？♪♪

I had this picture on my first day on my cosmetology class. With Vegies yo people!! :D aaha!! :]]

Yay! I'm... the only boy in my class. I find it amusing~ :P

We spend the day discussing safety precautions and regulations. Not fun but i know i will have fun in the future here! :]]

After cosmetology school i went to eat with a few friends at Nam's house. He made dinner for us? Hah! So nice of him . . . I wish i can cook!!! Vietnamese food . . . ho ho ho♪♪

I'll learn how to cook for sure! :]]

~ ＰＥＡＣＥ＆ＬＯＶＥ！！！♡

☆ジェームス☆

Banana split

こんにゃちわ☆
皆、久しプリンっすね♪
元気かい？

正直にｘａｎｇａにもう二度と戻らないと決めたんですけど、
あぁやっぱり戻ってきたね（汗）
でも別にここが好きとかじゃない。
今回はただＪＡＫＩＢＢの為だけです♥

んそれじゃー
また今度ね♪

oh and my pillow is sick :[[ why is that? Pillow get well soon please!!!!!